Weight Loss Wednesday and other stuff :)

Well I am getting really good at only posting on Wednesdays!! So the new season of The Biggest Loser started last night the girls and I watched it and sat on our exercise balls and worked our arms, abs and legs while trying to stay balanced on the balls. I'd say we all did pretty well. We had Subway for dinner, which is a tradition on Biggest Loser nights, we started that in Maryland. I must say that the show definitely gives me more inspiration and motivation. I will be checking the scale next week, I've decided for now to only check every 2 weeks. I'm also remembering to take my vitamins and fish oil every day!! I've also decided that once and for all it is time to quit drinking soda!! How will I live without my Pepsi? Well that's a good question, and the only answer I have is so far so good. But I will NOT give up my tea!! Please no suggestions about drinking diet soda, I have a huge issue with artificial sweeteners, not too mention the actual ingredients in most soda that are bad for you, but tastes sooo good! I was so addicted to the throwback Pepsi with the real sugar in it, now that was tasty! My next goal is to try to find a treadmill or recumbent bike that I like and can afford since I actually have the space for it now. I need something extra in the house for when the weather starts getting cold/rainy/snowy. At least I have time to shop around for that. I hope everyone is having a GREAT week, mine has been pretty damn good so far!!

Weight Loss Wednesday

Is it really Wednesday again?? I haven't posted since last week!! Not necessarily a bad thing. I have found since I've been here that I actually spend A LOT less time on the computer, unless I am looking up something specific or being social!! I think that is a great thing by the way, because that means I am spending less time sitting on my butt!! We have been here for almost 2 months, my weight has gone down a little, but my body fat percentage has gone down more!!! That makes me extremely happy!!! Not much more to say tonight, I am really getting sleepy and my eyes are about done for the day.

Weight Loss Wednesday

I have struggled with my weight off and on since I was probably 20 years old or so. The 10 years I spent in Maryland was when I reached my heaviest weight. Of course I had lots of stress there, some of it I left behind me when we left. What I wish society would understand is that not all overweight/obese people are lazy and eat all day. Genetics tends to play a part in it, as well as stress, medical problems, medications and so on. I guess for me stress is a major factor with my weight as well as my eye problems. I know there will always be stress in my life in one form or another, it's unavoidable. I just need to make sure I am dealing with it and that I don't let it consume me or cause me to be depressed. Sometimes that is a very easy thing to say and a very difficult thing to do. I could sit here and tell you about a lot of the things that have caused me severe stress over the years, but that would be pointless and possibly hurtful to other people. I have learned to forgive a lot of things I didn't think I could, but it's healthier for me, and just because I can forgive doesn't mean I forget! I do have several big goals in mind for myself over this journey besides my ultimate weight I would like to see. I would love to get off of my blood pressure meds, but sadly genetics also plays a part in that. I want to be healthy and happy most of all. My biggest challenge over the years has been putting myself first, that's a hard thing for a mother/wife to do (for me anyway). Somewhere along the past 10 years or so, I quit liking myself and I didn't think I was good enough. I have been working on that for the past couple years and my self worth and self esteem are getting better. I know that I am good enough no matter how high that stupid number goes(of course it's not gonna go any higher) and that I deserve to be happy and it's ok to put myself first sometimes. I know that it's going to be a long and frustrating process, but I think I am up for it, and most of all I know I can do it!!!

22 years ago tonight...

this sweet little girl was born!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWNIE!!!!! We love you very very much. Hope you have a wonderful birthday.