Weight Loss Wednesday

I have struggled with my weight off and on since I was probably 20 years old or so. The 10 years I spent in Maryland was when I reached my heaviest weight. Of course I had lots of stress there, some of it I left behind me when we left. What I wish society would understand is that not all overweight/obese people are lazy and eat all day. Genetics tends to play a part in it, as well as stress, medical problems, medications and so on. I guess for me stress is a major factor with my weight as well as my eye problems. I know there will always be stress in my life in one form or another, it's unavoidable. I just need to make sure I am dealing with it and that I don't let it consume me or cause me to be depressed. Sometimes that is a very easy thing to say and a very difficult thing to do. I could sit here and tell you about a lot of the things that have caused me severe stress over the years, but that would be pointless and possibly hurtful to other people. I have learned to forgive a lot of things I didn't think I could, but it's healthier for me, and just because I can forgive doesn't mean I forget! I do have several big goals in mind for myself over this journey besides my ultimate weight I would like to see. I would love to get off of my blood pressure meds, but sadly genetics also plays a part in that. I want to be healthy and happy most of all. My biggest challenge over the years has been putting myself first, that's a hard thing for a mother/wife to do (for me anyway). Somewhere along the past 10 years or so, I quit liking myself and I didn't think I was good enough. I have been working on that for the past couple years and my self worth and self esteem are getting better. I know that I am good enough no matter how high that stupid number goes(of course it's not gonna go any higher) and that I deserve to be happy and it's ok to put myself first sometimes. I know that it's going to be a long and frustrating process, but I think I am up for it, and most of all I know I can do it!!!